Sitting here watching Archer cut the grass and flipping through Shape magazine while I should be knitting I looked at my To-Do list for the day and only saw one thing checked off—Irish. Somewhere my mind, not really at peace but not at war either, I saw the uncompleted list and I told myself, “yeah, if you wake up tomorrow you can do that”.
Yes, tomorrow is not promised to any soul and sometimes it’s okay to still put something off until tomorrow in order to enjoy today. I am learning this now. I’m still trying to live in the here and now because I’ve lived my entire life under some requirements of living how other people assured me it was how I was supposed to be and while tomorrow is not promised to anybody you should never live for the day because there is something selfish and unholy about that. You don’t grow up from the age of three into adulthood fed a line and easily change that. I guess as I get older I am trying to connect with me, and the me I could have been knowing that I might not wake up tomorrow, but it’s okay because if I do then my to-do list will still be there waiting for me.
After Archer finishes cutting the grass—yes, I picked the name for the lawn mower after my mother asked me what we would name him since I keep saying “he” and now she does it too. I just like the name Archer for so many reasons so Archer was the first name that came to me.
After Archer finishes doing what he does and then recharges himself I will go inside, get myself ready to bake the cookies I was too tired after a full day of cleaning gutters and doing yard work yesterday to do and I will check one more thing off the list. All the other stuff like editing a finished book or working on another short story I am thinking of adding to the winter season end of year book…well if I’m exhausted from kitchen and house cleaning then if tomorrow comes for me I can do that tomorrow.
We all know tomorrow might not come to us but if you can, try to make the best of the day and if you wake up tomorrow be happy that you don’t have any regrets of the things that you missed while trying to live your life in a future you might never have.